MVA s

Hehehe so I m writing about motor vehicle accidents but what I really mean is the small bumps and bangs we motorists get ourselves into from time to time.
I' ve been on both sides, ie I've been the victim and the perpetrator!
So today I was the victim! I parked in a parking space by the roadside and this afternoon, a lorry banged into the side of my parked car ! I was just in time to witness the accident and ran after the driver.Two motorcyclists also gave chase but actually the driver was stopping anyway because he was in town to deliver some goods to a shop near my Clinic.
I said, " You banged into my car". And he replied oh really , I did not notice, and so I took him to my car and indeed the yellow paint of his lorry was on the side of my car along with a dent in the right back door!He apoligized and said he had no money to pay for the repair, and I was not about to let him off that easily. I grabbed his arm, oh dear, me , old lady me being tough ..but he was a nice fellow really so he just followed along..and we went into the clinic..it was hot out in the sun even at 4.30 pm! I finally got his employer's phone number from him and soon after his employer came . I saw him look at my car with another man, and then he asked the man in the coffee shop nearby what happened and I saw the man pointing and gesticulating to relate to him what had happened. Then , he crossed the road and came in the clinic.

I saw him in my room. What a nice man! He said he was so sorry and so embarassed at the incident and then introduced his friend who was a car job man. He told me of all the shops he owned, hmm yes I can imagine he is quite loaded, he drove a Prado by the way. So it was agreed that he would have my car repaired, the car job man would come and take the car tomorrow morning have it done and sent back and the taukeh would pay for it.

Wow! all settled and I did not have to rave and rant even, not that I was going to anyway.

I could see myself observing myself even when I was trying to be intimidating towards the lorry driver to tell him he had to be held accountable for the accident.

At this time I was thinking of the times when I was the perpetrator. The last time my husband was reversing and along came this car , straight into my bumper, the man was mad over it...but my husband just said , come see me at my office, I am Director of the >>>>. He did not turn up, I wonder if he thought my husband was unwilling to pay? Well it was his fault really because he came out of nowhere straight into the tail end of my car!

Then there was the time when I brushed against the side of a parked car while getting out of the parking bay. I told the owner I would pay but he never showed up to claim the bill for repairing the damage..

And what about the time I reversed into a car and drove off because I did not know what else to do! So ok luckily my husband who was around settled that one..

And then there was that pakcik whose bumper I banged into at a junction because the sun was in my eye. I was very nice to him, took him to the clinic to get my money and paid him more than he asked for. I think I was trying to compensate for another time when I refused to pay what the fellow wanted and insisted on paying less...

We live and we learn. Even when I was acting fierce just now I was actually willing to write it off.
I learned something about manner and honor from the taukey , now that is the way to do it really, gracious and kind and pleasant..

thots

You know something?
I am not as sick as I was! Now that is a realization.
Hey my tummy does not hurt as much, my hips are not painful .
Only my emotions are not so good. I am unenthusiastic and feel kind of empty and lacking any kind of feeling of mission and vison.
In times like this I just know I should read read and read..only that is a bit difficult when one does not have the sense of vision and mission ..So ok I ll change the type of books I read . see if it helps

been a long time

Been a long time since I journalled anything yet so much has happened really.

I m still not where it is at about money issues, I worry too much and also I do not have the generosity that I wish I had!

My meditations have not been as long or as deep as I feel they should be
Life is still hectic even tho I ve wanted to slow down .
Slow down enough to know how I am feeling inside of me, to see what progress I ve made or not.

planing is another thing that I have to get organised and , part of that is my atrocious filing system

Oh dear!
I think it is a mess to get involved in a huge debate over argumentative typse who are illogical.

OK here is a list of characteristics of rigid and narrow minded people I should avoid having any kind of interaction with.

You can fill in the blank with any brand of interfering religion.

1. DENIAL That is the first identifying mark. They will flatly deny they are ............ They will say, there is no such thing as ................. or ............. They will say "I am just a............................ "I don't believe in sects". Don't be fooled by any of this. Read on...

2. TOO MUCH KNOWLEDGE Another distinguishing factor. Usually these folks have a lot of knowledge about the Religion of their choice but of a certain understanding only.

3. INTERFERING A special characteristic. This is a certain giveaway. These people are interfering. Trust them to stick their noses in EVERY AFFAIR.I know...... who go along with a janaza/burial procession, and at the time of burial will stick their noses in, scolding the bereaved
family to do this and not to do this. This interference is blantant in every sphere of life. These ppl are incapable of keeping their noses out of any matter. They just have to give their $0.02 worth, otherwise they suffer from a severe indigestion.

4. INTOLERENCE
Combine #2 and #3 above and you have a sure recipe for intolerance.
These ppl have least tolerance for people of other beliefs.
Be it anyone. These people judge everyone according to their own narrow microscope and then pass judgements. Their judgement is usually negative. Religious telerance and unity/brotherhood is usually low on their list of priorities.

5. KEYWORDS
Another dead giveaway. Remember these three keywords. The people who use
these words a lot, you would know who they are. These three words are innovation unbeliever ", and associating other gods with god". Any action to which they do not believe in, based on their own knowledge is one of the above tolerance for spiritual matters and tend to think of everything as black and white. What they don't understand is, to them, obviously wrong.

6. OH, SO LOGICAL!
These ppl are very logical. They tend to prove/disprove everything from the books. Usually authentic books. The sad point is, that their hearts are usually dead. They don't understand anything spiritual or mystical. They feel there should be nothing spiritual about
muslims. Everything we require is in the books. So they tend to flap helplessly when confronted with the mystical aspects of Islam. But then their logical minds kick in. Here is how it works: We don't know about it - So - Its not in the books - So - Thats not ........- So -Those who do it are Ignorant/etc" - So - - So - This is wrong - So - They will go to hellfire - Hence WE ARE
RIGHT!

So what can we do: Unfortunately, not much!.... Thats sad, but true. Just chill. All
you can do it to stay away from discussing anything religious with them. Don't fight with them. Although very inappropriate under the circumstances, and very politically incorrect, but there is one very wise saying in Irish which is apt to convey what I am trying to
convey... ( I deleted this because it was just too bad) .......
Same here. Don't debate. Stay away. They will mess up your beliefs and you wouldn't know. They will try and shove down their own microscopic Islam down your throats. If you really want to talk to them, just discuss with them weather, cricket, cars, anyhting...but religion. And you will live a happy life.

This breed of people is growing everyday. This group is created on the base of "fear". Their scholars will frighten others by saying that what they are doing is wrong and they will be put into hellfire if they don't follow the ........ (in their words, "true Religion).

unenthusiastic

Somehow feeling hostile today.
My nose itched at night. Is it the new ioniser with the aromatherapy function that is affecting me negatively? I ll see if it is , try removing the aromatherapy and putting in just plain mineral water.


Ok so I m not so hostile, it is not a mood I cannot shake off, it is just a realization and then I can shake it off.

So I did an I & d for a Bartholin's cyst that is infected. I m usually very impatient when the patient is not so cooperative and wants to block my hands but today I was patient and very mild . Must be the experience I had with the man who had an infected sebaceous cyst and almost blacked out when I expressed out the pus without adequate anaesthetic! Well it is difficult to give aneasthetic with an infected cyst but I guess the next time I should try harder and make sure the patient does not feel much !